Broken Wing

Sorry for the bad quality of the photo, I took it with my laptop hence the fuzziness.

I’ve been feeling like shit the last couple of days. My confidence spiked unbelievably low. I hate everything about myself. My face, my body, my attitude and my life. It’s been so tough for me to get through a day where I actually believe there’s a reason for me to be around.

I feel abandoned by friends and family even though I know they are always there. I feel helpless and insecure. I feel ugly and fat and horrible. I don’t know. Something has just really caused me to get to an ultra low point and I’m really struggling to pull myself up and out.

Recently the only thing that has gotten me to smile are the silly things I see on tumblr. Everyone’s posts are silly and sweet. I hope this funk ends soon. :<

I'm not looking for sympathy or comments. Which is why I disabled them on this deviation. I just simply found a way to express how horrible I feel inside right now. I don't want encouragement or words of praise. I only wish to show that I am not that beautiful at heart.

For the past two years I have been struggling with depression and an eating disorder. It's just so hard some days to look in the mirror and to wake up knowing there's one more day to get through. Please, I know this sounds dramatic, I know this seems selfish, but I needed to share this and get it out of my head. Forgive me for being weak. I love you all.

With all my adoration and love,
Tuna